If i knew then

The first time that I saw you, looking like you did
We were Young we were restless
Just two clueless kids
But if I knew then what I know now
I'd fall in love

You're on a bus in chicago, three rows to the left
You know my heart is reaching for you
But we never even met
If I knew then what I know now
I'd fall in love

Cause love only comes once in a while
 Knocks on your door and throws you a smile
Takes every breath, leaves every scar
Speaks through your soul and sings to your heart
But if I knew then what I know now
I'd fall in love

On a summer night in august
Backseat of my car
Said I'm trying to get to know you
I took it way to far
But if I knew then what I know now
I'd fall in love

I used up a lot of chances
But you give them back
But if again it comes crawling
Im gonna make it last

If I knew then what I know now

I'd fall in love

- Lady Antebellum

De bons et de mauvais jours

La vie est un flot continuel de bons et de mauvais jours. Je me demande parfois si la personne moyenne vis ses jours de la façon dont moi je peux les vivre. Je suis très curieuse à propos de cette question mais je ne pourrai malheureusement jamais en connaître la juste réponse. Suis-je la seule à vivre en montagnes russes ? Suis-je seule à passer du bonheur à la tristesse, et vice versa, aussi facilement ?

Toujours à la recherche de sensations fortes, de l'intensité du moment, de rentabiliser la vie, de vivre pleinement, de profiter de la jeunesse, d'avoir l'impression de ne pas être passé à côté de rien à l'heure fatale. L'avidité, la soif de la vie a ses bons et ses moins bons côtés. La mesure de chacun d'eux est parfois difficile à doser. Il y a de grandes joies, des regrets, des évènements passionnants, des peines. Du bon, du moins bon.

Certains jours sont parfaits, d'autres sont difficiles à porter. Jouir de ses bons choix, vivre avec le lourd poids de ses moins bons.

Telle est la vie sous le soleil. Personne n'y échappe.

The importance of rebellion

Is rebellion bad?

Hell, rebellion is what America was founded on. Rebellion is the thinking man’s resistance to persuasive training and coercive manipulation. Rebellion is often viewed as a socially irresponsible fad. Sure, some teenagers mistake true rebellion for a manner of dress, but in realities, it is much, much deeper.

Rebellion is not anti for the sake of anti. Rebellion is anti for the sake of legitimate defiance. The rebellious mind is often the only force capable of parting the smokescreens, which cloud the minds of the hoodwinked sheep. It takes a loud roaring voice of dissidence to snap sheep out of their hypnotic trances. Rebellion is usually nothing more than the expressions of the rare few who are actually paying attention.

Rebellion is not found in a national chain store. Sure, there are some symbols, which imply, “I am not like you, nor do I choose to be.” But a rebel is deeper than any symbol, or external facade. A true rebel is one who stands defiant with a reason, not a social season. Genuine rebellion is not a growing phase, it’s not a particular manner of dress, it’s a mindset.

A real rebel prefers true enemies to false friends. He prefers to be hated for his convictions than to be loved for his submission. He prefers blood-stained swords to gold-plates shackles. A rebel is often a person who stands tall and firm rather than bends out of convenience. The true rebel prefers the crown of ostracism to the noose of obedience. A revel is simply someone who follows his own path, not that which is popular, socially acceptable, or currently fashionable.

Rebellion is not simply a word. Rebellion is our actions, our attitude, and our outlook.

Source: “The Importance of Rebellion,” from The Virus, by Thorin

Hurt

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were
But I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done, forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you

- Christina Aguilera

Why love is painful

Love is painful because it creates the way for bliss. Love is painful because it transforms; love is mutation. Each transformation is going to be painful because the old has to be left for the new. The old is familiar, secure, safe, the new is absolutely unknown. You will be moving in an uncharted ocean. You cannot use your mind with the new; with the old, the mind is skillful. The mind can function only with the old; with the new, the mind is utterly useless.

Hence, fear arises, and leaving the old, comfortable, safe world, the world of convenience, pain arises. It is the same pain that the child feels when he comes out of the womb of the mother. It is the same pain that the bird feels when he comes out of the egg. It is the same pain that the bird will feel when he will try for the first time to be on the wing.

The fear of the unknown, and the security of the known, the insecurity of the unknown, the unpredictability of the unknown, makes one very much frightened.

And because the transformation is going to be from the self towards a state of no-self, agony is very deep. But you Cannot have ecstasy without going through agony. If the gold wants to be purified, it has to pass through fire.

Love is fire.

It is because of the pain of love, millions of people live a loveless life. They too suffer, and their suffering is futile. To suffer in love is not to suffer in vain. To suffer in love is creative; it takes you to higher levels of consciousness. To suffer without love is utterly a waste; it leads you nowhere, it keeps you moving in the same vicious circle.

The man who is without love is narcissistic, he is closed. He knows only himself. And how much can he know himself if he has not known the other, because only the other can function as a mirror? You will never know yourself without knowing the other. Love is very fundamental for self-knowledge too. The person who has not known the other in deep love, in intense passion, in utter ecstasy, will not be able to know who he is, because he will not have the mirror to see his own reflection.

Relationship is a mirror, and the purer the love is, the higher the love is, the better the mirror, the cleaner the mirror. But the higher love needs that you should be open. The higher love needs you to be vulnerable. You have to drop your armor; that is painful. You have not to be constantly on guard. You have to drop the calculating mind. You have to risk. You have to live dangerously. The other can hurt you; that is the fear in being vulnerable. The other can reject you; that is the fear in being in love.
The reflection that you will find in the other of your own self may be ugly; that is the anxiety. Avoid the mirror. But by avoiding the mirror you are not going to become beautiful. By avoiding the situation you are not going to grow either. The challenge has to be taken.

One has to go into love. That is the first step towards God, and it cannot be bypassed. Those who try to bypass the step of love will never reach God. That is absolutely necessary because you become aware of your totality only when you are provoked by the presence of the other, when your presence is enhanced by the presence of the other, when you are brought out of your narcissistic, closed world under the open sky.

Love is an open sky. To be in love is to be on the wing. But certainly, the unbounded sky creates fear.
And to drop the ego is very painful because we have been taught to cultivate the ego. We think the ego is our only treasure. We have been protecting it, we have been decorating it, we have been continuously polishing it, and when love knocks on the door, all that is needed to fall in love is to put aside the ego; certainly it is painful. It is your whole life’s work, it is all that you have created — this ugly ego, this idea that “I am separate from existence. ”

This idea is ugly because it is untrue. This idea is illusory, but our society exists, is based on this idea that each person is a person, not a presence.

The truth is that there is no person at all in the world; there is only presence. You are not — not as an ego, separate from the whole. You are part of the whole. The whole penetrates you, the whole breathes in you, pulsates in you, the whole is your life.

Love gives you the first experience of being in tune with something that is not your ego. Love gives you the first lesson that you can fall into harmony with someone who has never been part of your ego. If you can be in harmony with a woman, if you can be in harmony with a friend, with a man, if you can be in harmony with your child or with your mother, why can’t you be in harmony with all human beings? And if to be in harmony with a single person gives such joy, what will be the outcome if you are in harmony with all human beings? And if you can be in harmony with all human beings, why can’t you be in harmony with animals and birds and trees? Then one step leads to another.

Love is a ladder. It starts with one person, it ends with the totality. Love is the beginning, God is the end. To be afraid of love, to be afraid of the growing pains of love, is to remain enclosed in a dark cell.

Modern man is living in a dark cell; it is narcissistic. Narcissism is the greatest obsession of the modern mind.

And then there are problems, problems which are meaningless. There are problems which are creative because they lead you to higher awareness. There are problems which lead you nowhere; they simply keep you tethered, they simply keep you in your old mess.

Love creates problems. You can avoid those problems by avoiding love. But those are very essential problems! They have to be faced, encountered; they have to be lived and gone through and gone beyond. And to go beyond, the way is through. Love is the only real thing worth doing. All else is secondary. If it helps love, it is good. All else is just a means, love is the end. So whatsoever the pain, go into love.

If you don’t go into love, as many people have decided, then you are stuck with yourself. Then your life is not a pilgrimage, then your life is not a river going to the ocean; your life is a stagnant pool, dirty, and soon there will be nothing but dirt and mud. To keep clean, one needs to keep flowing. A river remains clean because it goes on flowing. Flow is the process of remaining continuously virgin.
A lover remains a virgin. All lovers are virgin. The people who don’t love cannot remain virgin; they become dormant, stagnant; they start stinking sooner or later — and sooner than later — because they have nowhere to go. Their life is dead.

That’s where modern man finds himself, and because of this, all kinds of neuroses, all kinds of madnesses, have become rampant. Psychological illness has taken epidemic proportions. It is no more that a few individuals are psychologically ill; the reality is the whole earth has become a madhouse. The whole of humanity is suffering from a kind of neurosis.

And that neurosis is coming from your narcissistic stagnancy. Everyone is stuck with one’s own illusion of having a separate self; then people go mad. And this madness is meaningless, unproductive, uncreative. Or people start committing suicide. Those suicides are also unproductive, uncreative.

You may not commit suicide by taking poison or jumping from a cliff or by shooting yourself, but you can commit a suicide which is a very slow process, and that’s what happens. Very few people commit suicide suddenly. Others have decided for a slow suicide; gradually, slowly, slowly they die. But almost, the tendency to be suicidal has become universal.

This is no way to live, and the reason, the fundamental reason, is we have forgotten the language of love. We are no more courageous enough to go into that adventure called love.

Hence people are interested in sex, because sex is not risky. It is momentary, you don’t get involved. Love is involvement; it is commitment. It is not momentary. Once it takes roots, it can be forever. It can be a lifelong involvement. Love needs intimacy, and only when you are intimate does the other become a mirror. When you meet sexually with a woman or a man, you have not met at all; in fact, you avoided the soul of the other person. You just used the body and escaped, and the other used your body and escaped. You never became intimate enough to reveal each other’s original faces.

Love is the greatest Zen koan.

It is painful, but don’t avoid it. If you avoid it you have avoided the greatest opportunity to grow. Go into it, suffer love, because through the suffering comes great ecstasy. Yes, there is agony, but out of the agony, ecstasy is born. Yes, you will have to die as an ego, but if you can die as an ego, you will be born as God, as a Buddha. And love will give you the first tongue-tip-taste of Tao, of Sufism, of Zen. Love will give you the first proof that God is, that life is not meaningless.

The people who say life is meaningless are the people who have not known love. All that they are saying is that their life has missed love.

Let there be pain, let there be suffering. Go through the dark night, and you will reach to a beautiful sunrise. It is only in the womb of the dark night that the sun evolves. It is only through the dark night that the morning comes.

My whole approach here is that of love. I teach only love and only love and nothing else. You can forget about God; that is just an empty word. You can forget about prayers because they are only rituals imposed by others on you. Love is the natural prayer, not imposed by anybody. You are born with it. Love is the true God — not the God of theologians, but the God of Buddha, Jesus, Mohammed, the God of the Sufis. Love is a tariqa, a method, to kill you as a separate individual and to help you become the infinite. Disappear as a dewdrop and become the ocean, but you will have to pass through the door of love.

And certainly when one starts disappearing like a dewdrop, and one has lived long as a dewdrop, it hurts, because one has been thinking, “I am this, and now this is going. I am dying. ” You are not dying, but only an illusion is dying. You have become identified with the illusion, true, but the illusion is still an illusion. And only when the illusion is gone will you be able to see who you are. And that revelation brings you to the ultimate peak of joy, bliss, celebration.

Source: The Secret, by Osho

 

 

 

Pain is our best teacher

‘Nature shows that with the growth of intelligence comes increased capacity for pain, and it is only with the highest degree of intelligence that suffering reaches its supreme point.’ ~Arthur Schopenhauer

We are so afraid of pain. We are doing the best we can in order to avoid having painful experiences in our lives. And yet, the whole way we are living is leading us to exactly what we are trying to avoid.

Most of us are a continuous state of psychological pain. And the more we try to avoid pain, the more we find ourselves in pain. Because by avoiding pain we are also neglecting to find out what is the cure for pain.

Painful experiences have so much to teach us. Pain implies that something is going wrong with ourselves. Pain points out to the fact that we need to take action so as to change the way we are living–to stop doing some things and start doing some other things. Therefore to be in pain is not bad, contrary to what most people believe. In fact, pain is the best teacher.

Only by experiencing pain can you find your bliss, because only by being in pain can you realize that you have been doing something wrong. Only in a state of suffering can you become more intelligent, because suffering means problems, and to solve problems you need to increase your intelligence. This is why those that don’t have problems in their lives are usually just stupid, because they don’t have to use their mind that much. Thus their reasoning atrophies and they become dumb.

If you study the history of mankind you will find that the greatest minds that have walked on earth were those most in pain. Pain urged those individuals to ask questions and seek for answers. Pain pushed them to see life from a whole different perspective.

Don’t be afraid of pain. Accept pain and embrace it. This, however, does not mean that you should be a masochist. It does not mean that you should desire pain in your life. It just means that when you are in pain, you should not try to avoid pain or find ways to distract yourself from pain. Instead, you should allow pain show you what it has to show you.

Unfortunately most of us are continuously trying to distract ourselves from facing ourselves. Because we know that If we do otherwise, we will have to face a great amount of negativity: fears, worries, anxiety, everything that makes us suffer.

So we spend most of our time doing unnecessary things just to distract ourselves. We keep on watching TV, listening to music, surfing on the internet… We keep on doing thousands of things, no matter how stupid, just so we can avoid a moment of aloneness.

But unless you accept pain you are never going to overcome it, and unless you overcome your pain, you are not going to evolve and grow into something better out of yourself.

We all need to find time in our lives to study pain. Pain is just a symptom and we should search for its causes if we truly want to relieve ourselves from it.

‘Don’t carry your mistakes around with you. Instead, place them under your feet and use them as stepping stones to rise above them.’ ~Ryan Ferreras

How sex improves health

There is an overwhelming amount of evidence that sex is great for your health :

Having an amorous interlude an average of 3 times a week burns up 35,000 kilojoules, which is equal to running 130 km in a year.

Sex increases your testosterone levels which fortify your bones and muscles and supply you with good cholesterol. 

Endorphins, which are the body’s natural pain killers, are released during sex and are good for relieving headache, whiplash and arthritis.

The hormone DHEA (dehydroepiandrosterone) is also released just prior to orgasm, and improves cognition, builds the immune system, inhibits tumour growth and builds bones. 

In a woman, the hormone that arouses the desire to be touched is released in large doses during sex and her oestrogen levels also increase.

Dr Harold Bloomfield, in his book The Power of Five, showed how oestrogen is associated with better bones and a better cardiovascular system in women.

The effect of all these hormones is to protect the heart and extend life, so more sex equals longer life and less stress.

The list of benefits for having a vibrant sex life is getting longer and longer.

Source: “How Sex Improves Your Health,” from Why Men Don’t Listen & Women Can’t Read Maps, by Allan & Barbara Pease